Boron metallicum [Bor-met]:
- Jan Scholten
Boron has until now only been known in the form of Natrum boratum (NaBO3) or Borax. We also know a little bit about Boric acid, (HBO3), but nothing is known about its homoeopathic properties in metallic form. It now appears that some of the key symptoms of Borax, namely the sensitivity to noise and the aggravation from downward motion, are in fact properties of the metal itself.
Signature
The name Boron is derived from Borax, the mineral that contains Boron in large quantities. Boron is a component of the gem stone tourmaline.
Boron looks more like carbon than like aluminium. Boron is the only element that can bond with another element into a structure of twenty equal-size planes, for instance in B12 H12. This structure of 20 planes is linked to the 5 equal-side plane structures and Boron is the 5th element in the periodic table.
Like Carbon and Silicium it has a tendency to form long chains.
When Boron is mixed with steel it increases the tensile strength of the steel. Boroncarbide-BC- is very hard (9.9).
Borax was often used in soap and water softeners.
In agriculture it is used in fertilisers and pesticides. Boron deficiency will cause hardening and dry rot in vegetables such as beetroot, and pitting in fruit such as apples.
Concepts
Stages 3-9 Carbon series
Investigating Exploring Individual Person I
Comparing Discerning Value Meaning Self-worth
Trying Ethics: Good and Bad
Hesitating Body Life Lust
Changeable Unstable Possessions
Underestimating Hero
Discouraged I weakness
Unofficial Non committal Magic Myths
Confusion Child
Group analysis
Confused about self.
A person who is easily discouraged.
Doubting the Self: sympathetic.
Confused about self-worth.
Indecisive about personal issues.
Doubting oneself.
Doubts about life; jumpy and fearful.
Hesitating over what they will take.
A person who doesn't commit himself: falling.
Confusion about identity: no sense of self yet.
Confusion about identities: multiple personality.
I don't commit myself.
Not quite a fully developed personality.
Picture of Boron
Essence: Confusion and doubt about identity.
Confusion about who they are
They feel that they don't know who they are. They know by now that there is a Self somewhere, but they don't know which part it really is. Is it this part of themselves or that part ? Have they seen it at all yet? Are they seeing everything in its proper perspective? They keep comparing everything in order to find out what is good and what is bad inside themselves. They have to find out whether they are a good or a bad person, but they can't do this until they know which part is their real Self.
They don't know themselves and hence they don't know what they really want. They often don't even know what they are thinking. Sometimes it feels as if their thoughts are outside themselves. This makes them confused and irritable.
They may project the confusion about themselves on to other people with questions like: Who are you really? This shows that they know that people do have a personality, but they don't know where the real person is inside that personality.
A person who is easily discouraged They are unsure about what they should be doing and when something goes wrong they immediately feel discouraged. They tend to be rather nervous and they think their own wishes are not important. This tendency is not as strong as in Beryllium but it is still there. Their self doubt makes them rather unstable too.
Emotions are difficult to handle and even more difficult to put into words.
Doubt about the Self: sympathetic
Because they have so many doubts about who they are it is relatively easy for them to imagine how things feel for another person. They can sympathise with the self doubts of this other person. They know only too well what this internal struggle feels like and they suffer with them. They suffer with the pain of drug addicts, animals, the whole world. They may find it very difficult to take what they deserve because they feel the needs of others so acutely. So they may appear very soft, like an angel.
Confused about self-worth
Their doubt about their self-worth makes them want to stay in the background. They doubt whether they are allowed to stand up for themselves and they daren't say no.
Doubt about values
They are not sure about the conclusions they have reached about the meaning of life. They definitely have their own ideas, but because they doubt the validity of these they tend to push them aside when someone else has a different idea. They prefer to avoid confrontation. So they would rather avoid places such as school for instance, where others might try to impose different values and ideas.
Doubt about life: jumpy and fearful
They feel that the world itself is not reliable enough for them to put their trust in it. So they tend to be rather jumpy, a strong keynote of Boron. They are extremely sensitive to noise, to sudden loud noises like motorbikes, planes, fireworks. This makes them beside themselves (literally) with fear. Especially the sound of a plane flying overhead may make them fear till crash down on top of them any moment. But soft noises such as someone eating an apple in their vicinity may make them very irritable too.
A person who doesn't commit himself: falling
They are not standing on firm ground, there is no solid base.
This is because they are so non-committal in their own values, as if they'll never know who they really are. This makes them feel as if they'll fall any minute, that they have no grip on themselves. This is the second keynote: aggravation from downward motion. Children don't dare to walk downstairs. They hate to be in a lift going down. Babies start crying when they are being put into their cot. Toddlers are afraid to climb down from a chair. Other more subtle forms of the same phenomenon are travel sickness or sea sickness, or aggravations when they are at the fair, on the roundabout or the roller coaster.
The hero preparing himself
This is the phase where the hero has decided that he will take on the challenge, only... he needs time to prepare himself. He looks around for outside help to assist him in his task. In our myths this help often comes in the form of magic potions or magic wands. These are in fact parts of their own personality that are personified in the form of outside helpers.
A confused child They are childish and dependent and this is how they feel too. It is as if they can't quite grasp how things work, it all looks a bit hazy to them. They are often absent minded and hazy themselves. They are late in their development, late learning to talk, walk and coordinate their movements. They are sexually underdeveloped too, both physically and mentally. Sometimes women have an aversion to breast feeding.
Confusion of identity: multiple personalities
The most extreme form of Boron is the state of having multiple personalities. They are so confused that they never stop thinking about all the different parts of themselves. Eventually every individual part will assume its own identity. In particular the so-called bad part, their shadow side, will start to lead a life of its own.
Expressions
Fear: vague (2!), unknown (!), life, strangers, future, travelling, flying, crowds, streets, failure, disease, operations, cancer, death, sounds, noise (!), lifts, planes, fairs, roundabouts, slides, roller coaster, see-saw, going down stairs, infections, contagion, going down (3!).
Delusions: voices that tell them who they are and what they should do.
Mood: timid, unsure, nervous, restless, indecisive, (>) support, listless, meaningless, gloomy, suicidal.
Mental: obsessive, confused, slow, dissociated, orientation problems, lack of concentration, forgetful, dementia, psychosis (<)(<)stress, delirium. Religion: magic, obsessive. Causes: neglect, abuse, incest, parents absent, addicted or weak, loss of parents and protectors. Generals Weather: (<) cold, (<) damp, (<) thunder. Perspiration: head (<) crying? Time: (<) 8 am. Desires: apples (2), pears, potatoes, sweet, cheese, bread. Aversion: lettuce, fruit, meat, vegetables. Food: (<) fruit, pears, bananas, wine, coffee, sour, salt, coffee. menses: frequent, profuse, with stomach and back pains. Sleep: long; talking during sleep, after sleep. Physical: (<) sounds (3!), sudden, loud, irritating like somebody chewing apples, planes, motor bikes, trains, fireworks; (<) downward motion, going down stairs, lift, slide, see saw, fats, roundabouts, roller coaster; (<) chlorine; (>) stools and urination, (>) crying.
Complaints
Retarded development, late walking, late talking, late being potty trained; sexually immature.
Taste and smell of fungus.
Dizziness with feeling of falling backwards or sliding down, as if in a lift.
Conjunctivitis; inverted eyelids (2!).
Parkinsons, epilepsy.
Ear infections. Colds, watery, sometimes green discharge. Face pale, tip of nose red.
Infections in mouth, aphthae, thrush. Salivation (<). Fissured tongue, red and bleeding. Fungus taste. Bronchitis, cough hard, stitching in chest. Lungs feel as if pressed in. Anaemia. Inflammations of the stomach (2), acidity, nausea on exertion, vomiting. Liver. Car sickness. Diarrhoea, stools soft with mucus. Constipation. Low oestrogen and testosterone levels. Sterility. Clitoris painful and swollen, eczema. Atrophy of testes. Leucorrhoea white, sticky and stringy, like egg-white. Inflammation of breasts, pain on the opposite side from the one the baby is suckling from. Late birth, child prefers the right breast. Inflammations of bladder, spasms; urine contains blood and protein. Crying before urination. Osteoporosis (3). Joint pains. Pain at tip of thumb, soles and ball of feet. Cobweb sensation on skin. Eczema around mouth, on cheeks, fingers and toes, herpes on lips. Hair tangled. Nails drop off. DD: Carbon series, Stage 3, Aluminiums, Asarum europeum. DD plants containing Boron: Avocado, Brassica, Citrus, dates, Juglans regia, Lactuca sativa, Leguminosae, Malus, Medicago, Opium, Pyrus, Prunus, Rutaceae, Spinicia leracea, Vitis vinfera. Complementary: Calcareas, Vitamin D. DD: Beryllium: wonders whether he can be a real person, doesn't dare to stand up for himself and thinks he is only allowed to be somebody if he adapts. Boron knows he is somebody, but he doesn't know who. He doesn't know which part of him is his real self. DD: Alumina: is also very confused about his identity. The difference is that Alumina is more confused about his own identity in relation to other peoples. Did he do this thing or did another family member do it? The confusion in Boron is even more fundamental: they don't know who they are, which part of themselves is their real self. Sometimes they don't even know whether they exist at all. DD: Phosphorus: is sympathetic but not unsure of himself. Case A 40 year old woman suffers from depression and multiple personality syndrome. She feels that she has slipped away, she can't feel the ground under her feet anymore. She thought she was whole, but now she is not sure anymore. She feels that everything she does is false, unreal. She is tired and desperate. She is ashamed to admit that she was working as a prostitute, although she didn't know it herself. Her neighbours alerted her to the fact that they had seen her at night prostituting herself. She feels dirty and imagines that everyone looks down on her. She is afraid she may try to kill herself, that shell decide to walk in front of a bus one day. She feels worthless and ungrounded. She feels she isn't good enough to give the lectures she is supposed to give soon. On the one hand she wants to be strong, but this is only an act, so that other people wont see what is going on inside her. On the other hand she would like to be weak, like a little girl, so that other people will take all the decisions for her. She likes to hear from others that she is doing things right. Her life has been one long tale of misery and abuse. When she was still a baby she was ill treated by her mother because she cried so much from the many ear infections she had. From her 10th to her 18th year she was abused by her father and other men. When she was 18 she got pregnant but she miscarried. She was very upset, because she would have loved to have had a little child to care for. Her fiancee committed suicide three weeks before their wedding. The boyfriend she had after that forced her to work as a prostitute for 7 years. After all these miseries she ended up in a psychiatric hospital for 2 years. Afterwards she had many years of psychotherapy. She thought she had dealt with all her problems and got on top of them. She had a good job and got a grip on her life again, until she heard that she was seen working as a prostitute at night. During the psychotherapy treatment she discovered that besides having a prostitute personality, which is the most prominent, she has 5 other personalities. For several years she had been hearing voices when she was attending a meeting. These voices told her that she is a fake, that she makes a fuss, that she should keep her mouth shut, or leave the room. It feels as if there is a war going on in her head, that she has to fight a battle with all these opposing personalities. It makes her feel out of control, there is no integration inside her. In the past she used to mutilate herself, because pain provides control. As a child she used to sleepwalk and wake up somewhere else in the house, totally confused. She is afraid of snakes and spiders. She likes cats and dogs. She is afraid of women. She doesn't have a relationship a the moment, she can't imagine that anyone would like to share their life with her. She dreams that her mother is fighting with her therapist, because her mother doesn't want her to start a relationship with this therapist; she tries to stop them fighting but doesn't succeed. In another dream she wants to murder everybody, even her best friends. She follows them in her car and tries to run them over. She generally feels very tired; this feeling starts in her stomach. She feels as if she is dragging herself through life, but she would love to be strong. She had an operation on her right ear when she was 18 and one of the nerves was cut. Now she is deaf in that ear. She wears a hearing aid in her left ear because the violent abuse of her father damaged this ear too. She suffers from hayfever in June and July, and is allergic to animals, dust and tomatoes. Generals Weather: cold, cold feet; (>) sun; (>) inside; (>) and (>) sea.
Time: (<) 7 am; (<) June and July. Desires: spices (3), cheese. Aversion: meat (2), olives. Food: (<) cucumber, tomatoes, strawberries, hazelnuts. Analysis One remedy that springs to mind straight away is Lac caninum: she feels dirty, worthless, has been abused, is afraid of snakes, (>) dogs, (>) spices. When I gave her Lac caninum there was an improvement on the emotional level, she felt much calmer, but it didn't touch the problem of the multiple personalities.
We could call this symptom confusion of identities and we can find it in remedies such as Alumina. In the Complete repertory of Zandvoort we find under Confusion of identity and Delusion, identity, errors of personal identity the following remedies: Alum, Anh, Androc, Ant-c, Aur, Bapt, Camph, Cann-i, Cann-s, Cic, Gels, Kali-br, Lac-c, Lach, Lil-t, Med, Mosch, Myric, Naja, Nat- m, Ol-j, Petr, Phos, Plb, Pyrog, Pyrus, Raja-s, Stram, Sulph, Syph, Thuj, Val, Verat. However, none of these remedies really fitted this case in my opinion. Alumina is the only remedy that comes near it. In a group analysis Alumina would seem to fit, but the problem in this case goes even deeper. Alumina does have the confusion about who did what, but in this woman it is the whole personality that has been affected. This fact leads us to the Carbon series, and in particular to the third stage, the stage of confusion, being Boron.
Boron also has the very characteristic feeling that he has no firm ground under his feet.
Reaction
After Boron metallicum 1M she feels very well for a few days but then she has a relapse. She comes running for another dose which she takes four days after the first one. One month later she feels more secure; her suicidal thoughts don't run away with her anymore. The voices and different personalities are still there. She is working on the prostitute personality a lot during psycho-therapy sessions.
The following months she takes a double dose of Boron metallicum 1M every two weeks. She writes a letter to her therapist saying good-bye and after that the prostitute personality disappears. It feels a little bit strange and empty inside, but there is also a feeling of relief. She feels more stable, she realises that her personalities are there for a reason, so she is not so afraid anymore.
Case
A girl (Carbon series) aged 2 suffers from bronchitis. She has a slight fever and her skin is clammy. She coughs a lot. She is clingy and wants to be carried. She is very unsure of herself (Carbon series) and can't bear unexpected events or loud noises (Boron). She hates swings and see-saws (Boron). She likes going down a slide, but only when her mother is watching ((>) support, Carbon series). She is given Boron metallicum and her self confidence is greatly increased. Her mother says that her character has become more pronounced, she is a real little person now. Much less fear of loud noises.
Case
A girl (Carbon series) aged 5 has eczema in the hollow of her knees and elbows and on her fingers. She is easily frightened and clings to anybody who is near (Carbon series) She hasn't got much courage, when she has climbed on to a climbing frame she doesn't dare to come down (Boron). She gets Boron metallicum and becomes more independent, she is able to amuse herself, she stands up for herself and finds it easier to say no. The eczema has disappeared.
Boron has until now only been known in the form of Natrum boratum (NaBO3) or Borax. We also know a little bit about Boric acid, (HBO3), but nothing is known about its homoeopathic properties in metallic form. It now appears that some of the key symptoms of Borax, namely the sensitivity to noise and the aggravation from downward motion, are in fact properties of the metal itself.
Signature
The name Boron is derived from Borax, the mineral that contains Boron in large quantities. Boron is a component of the gem stone tourmaline.
Boron looks more like carbon than like aluminium. Boron is the only element that can bond with another element into a structure of twenty equal-size planes, for instance in B12 H12. This structure of 20 planes is linked to the 5 equal-side plane structures and Boron is the 5th element in the periodic table.
Like Carbon and Silicium it has a tendency to form long chains.
When Boron is mixed with steel it increases the tensile strength of the steel. Boroncarbide-BC- is very hard (9.9).
Borax was often used in soap and water softeners.
In agriculture it is used in fertilisers and pesticides. Boron deficiency will cause hardening and dry rot in vegetables such as beetroot, and pitting in fruit such as apples.
Concepts
Stages 3-9 Carbon series
Investigating Exploring Individual Person I
Comparing Discerning Value Meaning Self-worth
Trying Ethics: Good and Bad
Hesitating Body Life Lust
Changeable Unstable Possessions
Underestimating Hero
Discouraged I weakness
Unofficial Non committal Magic Myths
Confusion Child
Group analysis
Confused about self.
A person who is easily discouraged.
Doubting the Self: sympathetic.
Confused about self-worth.
Indecisive about personal issues.
Doubting oneself.
Doubts about life; jumpy and fearful.
Hesitating over what they will take.
A person who doesn't commit himself: falling.
Confusion about identity: no sense of self yet.
Confusion about identities: multiple personality.
I don't commit myself.
Not quite a fully developed personality.
Picture of Boron
Essence: Confusion and doubt about identity.
Confusion about who they are
They feel that they don't know who they are. They know by now that there is a Self somewhere, but they don't know which part it really is. Is it this part of themselves or that part ? Have they seen it at all yet? Are they seeing everything in its proper perspective? They keep comparing everything in order to find out what is good and what is bad inside themselves. They have to find out whether they are a good or a bad person, but they can't do this until they know which part is their real Self.
They don't know themselves and hence they don't know what they really want. They often don't even know what they are thinking. Sometimes it feels as if their thoughts are outside themselves. This makes them confused and irritable.
They may project the confusion about themselves on to other people with questions like: Who are you really? This shows that they know that people do have a personality, but they don't know where the real person is inside that personality.
A person who is easily discouraged They are unsure about what they should be doing and when something goes wrong they immediately feel discouraged. They tend to be rather nervous and they think their own wishes are not important. This tendency is not as strong as in Beryllium but it is still there. Their self doubt makes them rather unstable too.
Emotions are difficult to handle and even more difficult to put into words.
Doubt about the Self: sympathetic
Because they have so many doubts about who they are it is relatively easy for them to imagine how things feel for another person. They can sympathise with the self doubts of this other person. They know only too well what this internal struggle feels like and they suffer with them. They suffer with the pain of drug addicts, animals, the whole world. They may find it very difficult to take what they deserve because they feel the needs of others so acutely. So they may appear very soft, like an angel.
Confused about self-worth
Their doubt about their self-worth makes them want to stay in the background. They doubt whether they are allowed to stand up for themselves and they daren't say no.
Doubt about values
They are not sure about the conclusions they have reached about the meaning of life. They definitely have their own ideas, but because they doubt the validity of these they tend to push them aside when someone else has a different idea. They prefer to avoid confrontation. So they would rather avoid places such as school for instance, where others might try to impose different values and ideas.
Doubt about life: jumpy and fearful
They feel that the world itself is not reliable enough for them to put their trust in it. So they tend to be rather jumpy, a strong keynote of Boron. They are extremely sensitive to noise, to sudden loud noises like motorbikes, planes, fireworks. This makes them beside themselves (literally) with fear. Especially the sound of a plane flying overhead may make them fear till crash down on top of them any moment. But soft noises such as someone eating an apple in their vicinity may make them very irritable too.
A person who doesn't commit himself: falling
They are not standing on firm ground, there is no solid base.
This is because they are so non-committal in their own values, as if they'll never know who they really are. This makes them feel as if they'll fall any minute, that they have no grip on themselves. This is the second keynote: aggravation from downward motion. Children don't dare to walk downstairs. They hate to be in a lift going down. Babies start crying when they are being put into their cot. Toddlers are afraid to climb down from a chair. Other more subtle forms of the same phenomenon are travel sickness or sea sickness, or aggravations when they are at the fair, on the roundabout or the roller coaster.
The hero preparing himself
This is the phase where the hero has decided that he will take on the challenge, only... he needs time to prepare himself. He looks around for outside help to assist him in his task. In our myths this help often comes in the form of magic potions or magic wands. These are in fact parts of their own personality that are personified in the form of outside helpers.
A confused child They are childish and dependent and this is how they feel too. It is as if they can't quite grasp how things work, it all looks a bit hazy to them. They are often absent minded and hazy themselves. They are late in their development, late learning to talk, walk and coordinate their movements. They are sexually underdeveloped too, both physically and mentally. Sometimes women have an aversion to breast feeding.
Confusion of identity: multiple personalities
The most extreme form of Boron is the state of having multiple personalities. They are so confused that they never stop thinking about all the different parts of themselves. Eventually every individual part will assume its own identity. In particular the so-called bad part, their shadow side, will start to lead a life of its own.
Expressions
Fear: vague (2!), unknown (!), life, strangers, future, travelling, flying, crowds, streets, failure, disease, operations, cancer, death, sounds, noise (!), lifts, planes, fairs, roundabouts, slides, roller coaster, see-saw, going down stairs, infections, contagion, going down (3!).
Delusions: voices that tell them who they are and what they should do.
Mood: timid, unsure, nervous, restless, indecisive, (>) support, listless, meaningless, gloomy, suicidal.
Mental: obsessive, confused, slow, dissociated, orientation problems, lack of concentration, forgetful, dementia, psychosis (<)(<)stress, delirium. Religion: magic, obsessive. Causes: neglect, abuse, incest, parents absent, addicted or weak, loss of parents and protectors. Generals Weather: (<) cold, (<) damp, (<) thunder. Perspiration: head (<) crying? Time: (<) 8 am. Desires: apples (2), pears, potatoes, sweet, cheese, bread. Aversion: lettuce, fruit, meat, vegetables. Food: (<) fruit, pears, bananas, wine, coffee, sour, salt, coffee. menses: frequent, profuse, with stomach and back pains. Sleep: long; talking during sleep, after sleep. Physical: (<) sounds (3!), sudden, loud, irritating like somebody chewing apples, planes, motor bikes, trains, fireworks; (<) downward motion, going down stairs, lift, slide, see saw, fats, roundabouts, roller coaster; (<) chlorine; (>) stools and urination, (>) crying.
Complaints
Retarded development, late walking, late talking, late being potty trained; sexually immature.
Taste and smell of fungus.
Dizziness with feeling of falling backwards or sliding down, as if in a lift.
Conjunctivitis; inverted eyelids (2!).
Parkinsons, epilepsy.
Ear infections. Colds, watery, sometimes green discharge. Face pale, tip of nose red.
Infections in mouth, aphthae, thrush. Salivation (<). Fissured tongue, red and bleeding. Fungus taste. Bronchitis, cough hard, stitching in chest. Lungs feel as if pressed in. Anaemia. Inflammations of the stomach (2), acidity, nausea on exertion, vomiting. Liver. Car sickness. Diarrhoea, stools soft with mucus. Constipation. Low oestrogen and testosterone levels. Sterility. Clitoris painful and swollen, eczema. Atrophy of testes. Leucorrhoea white, sticky and stringy, like egg-white. Inflammation of breasts, pain on the opposite side from the one the baby is suckling from. Late birth, child prefers the right breast. Inflammations of bladder, spasms; urine contains blood and protein. Crying before urination. Osteoporosis (3). Joint pains. Pain at tip of thumb, soles and ball of feet. Cobweb sensation on skin. Eczema around mouth, on cheeks, fingers and toes, herpes on lips. Hair tangled. Nails drop off. DD: Carbon series, Stage 3, Aluminiums, Asarum europeum. DD plants containing Boron: Avocado, Brassica, Citrus, dates, Juglans regia, Lactuca sativa, Leguminosae, Malus, Medicago, Opium, Pyrus, Prunus, Rutaceae, Spinicia leracea, Vitis vinfera. Complementary: Calcareas, Vitamin D. DD: Beryllium: wonders whether he can be a real person, doesn't dare to stand up for himself and thinks he is only allowed to be somebody if he adapts. Boron knows he is somebody, but he doesn't know who. He doesn't know which part of him is his real self. DD: Alumina: is also very confused about his identity. The difference is that Alumina is more confused about his own identity in relation to other peoples. Did he do this thing or did another family member do it? The confusion in Boron is even more fundamental: they don't know who they are, which part of themselves is their real self. Sometimes they don't even know whether they exist at all. DD: Phosphorus: is sympathetic but not unsure of himself. Case A 40 year old woman suffers from depression and multiple personality syndrome. She feels that she has slipped away, she can't feel the ground under her feet anymore. She thought she was whole, but now she is not sure anymore. She feels that everything she does is false, unreal. She is tired and desperate. She is ashamed to admit that she was working as a prostitute, although she didn't know it herself. Her neighbours alerted her to the fact that they had seen her at night prostituting herself. She feels dirty and imagines that everyone looks down on her. She is afraid she may try to kill herself, that shell decide to walk in front of a bus one day. She feels worthless and ungrounded. She feels she isn't good enough to give the lectures she is supposed to give soon. On the one hand she wants to be strong, but this is only an act, so that other people wont see what is going on inside her. On the other hand she would like to be weak, like a little girl, so that other people will take all the decisions for her. She likes to hear from others that she is doing things right. Her life has been one long tale of misery and abuse. When she was still a baby she was ill treated by her mother because she cried so much from the many ear infections she had. From her 10th to her 18th year she was abused by her father and other men. When she was 18 she got pregnant but she miscarried. She was very upset, because she would have loved to have had a little child to care for. Her fiancee committed suicide three weeks before their wedding. The boyfriend she had after that forced her to work as a prostitute for 7 years. After all these miseries she ended up in a psychiatric hospital for 2 years. Afterwards she had many years of psychotherapy. She thought she had dealt with all her problems and got on top of them. She had a good job and got a grip on her life again, until she heard that she was seen working as a prostitute at night. During the psychotherapy treatment she discovered that besides having a prostitute personality, which is the most prominent, she has 5 other personalities. For several years she had been hearing voices when she was attending a meeting. These voices told her that she is a fake, that she makes a fuss, that she should keep her mouth shut, or leave the room. It feels as if there is a war going on in her head, that she has to fight a battle with all these opposing personalities. It makes her feel out of control, there is no integration inside her. In the past she used to mutilate herself, because pain provides control. As a child she used to sleepwalk and wake up somewhere else in the house, totally confused. She is afraid of snakes and spiders. She likes cats and dogs. She is afraid of women. She doesn't have a relationship a the moment, she can't imagine that anyone would like to share their life with her. She dreams that her mother is fighting with her therapist, because her mother doesn't want her to start a relationship with this therapist; she tries to stop them fighting but doesn't succeed. In another dream she wants to murder everybody, even her best friends. She follows them in her car and tries to run them over. She generally feels very tired; this feeling starts in her stomach. She feels as if she is dragging herself through life, but she would love to be strong. She had an operation on her right ear when she was 18 and one of the nerves was cut. Now she is deaf in that ear. She wears a hearing aid in her left ear because the violent abuse of her father damaged this ear too. She suffers from hayfever in June and July, and is allergic to animals, dust and tomatoes. Generals Weather: cold, cold feet; (>) sun; (>) inside; (>) and (>) sea.
Time: (<) 7 am; (<) June and July. Desires: spices (3), cheese. Aversion: meat (2), olives. Food: (<) cucumber, tomatoes, strawberries, hazelnuts. Analysis One remedy that springs to mind straight away is Lac caninum: she feels dirty, worthless, has been abused, is afraid of snakes, (>) dogs, (>) spices. When I gave her Lac caninum there was an improvement on the emotional level, she felt much calmer, but it didn't touch the problem of the multiple personalities.
We could call this symptom confusion of identities and we can find it in remedies such as Alumina. In the Complete repertory of Zandvoort we find under Confusion of identity and Delusion, identity, errors of personal identity the following remedies: Alum, Anh, Androc, Ant-c, Aur, Bapt, Camph, Cann-i, Cann-s, Cic, Gels, Kali-br, Lac-c, Lach, Lil-t, Med, Mosch, Myric, Naja, Nat- m, Ol-j, Petr, Phos, Plb, Pyrog, Pyrus, Raja-s, Stram, Sulph, Syph, Thuj, Val, Verat. However, none of these remedies really fitted this case in my opinion. Alumina is the only remedy that comes near it. In a group analysis Alumina would seem to fit, but the problem in this case goes even deeper. Alumina does have the confusion about who did what, but in this woman it is the whole personality that has been affected. This fact leads us to the Carbon series, and in particular to the third stage, the stage of confusion, being Boron.
Boron also has the very characteristic feeling that he has no firm ground under his feet.
Reaction
After Boron metallicum 1M she feels very well for a few days but then she has a relapse. She comes running for another dose which she takes four days after the first one. One month later she feels more secure; her suicidal thoughts don't run away with her anymore. The voices and different personalities are still there. She is working on the prostitute personality a lot during psycho-therapy sessions.
The following months she takes a double dose of Boron metallicum 1M every two weeks. She writes a letter to her therapist saying good-bye and after that the prostitute personality disappears. It feels a little bit strange and empty inside, but there is also a feeling of relief. She feels more stable, she realises that her personalities are there for a reason, so she is not so afraid anymore.
Case
A girl (Carbon series) aged 2 suffers from bronchitis. She has a slight fever and her skin is clammy. She coughs a lot. She is clingy and wants to be carried. She is very unsure of herself (Carbon series) and can't bear unexpected events or loud noises (Boron). She hates swings and see-saws (Boron). She likes going down a slide, but only when her mother is watching ((>) support, Carbon series). She is given Boron metallicum and her self confidence is greatly increased. Her mother says that her character has become more pronounced, she is a real little person now. Much less fear of loud noises.
Case
A girl (Carbon series) aged 5 has eczema in the hollow of her knees and elbows and on her fingers. She is easily frightened and clings to anybody who is near (Carbon series) She hasn't got much courage, when she has climbed on to a climbing frame she doesn't dare to come down (Boron). She gets Boron metallicum and becomes more independent, she is able to amuse herself, she stands up for herself and finds it easier to say no. The eczema has disappeared.
Very precise article. Very detailed explanation. Right on target. Thank you sir! Can you please suggest where to get these rare medicine like boron metallicum in India?
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